I can’t describe how much existance hurts, this awful numb pain I feel, it was only the begining of the month I was what seemed so happy. Why and when and how did that change? He can love me a month ago and hate me now? I can’t watch him everyday ignoring I’m around or sleeping in my bed but putting pillows down the middle. This world no longer holds a place for me. I don’t belong, I am feeling so much pain I cannot take it much longer….
Monthly Archives: February 2012
He really hates to be with me…
Well its obvious now he wants out.no ring works late has somewhere to always go and can’t even speak to me…and intimate moments incomplete…I will survive my brain just works around it blocks it out…time to be moving along…..life sucks
after 19 years I find myself here again…..
He cannot say he loves me he cannot comfort me and hold me and tell me everything is going to be all right. I find myself in the lowest place ive been in 14+ years.we are dancing the dance again.it is my head again,I start to doubt the world around me,i lose me…I cannot survive [...]
Wow I am in awe
After being together almost 19 years since we were both 19 my hubby can still surprise me and be romantic and funny. For the moment, I am happy with my life, with my marriage. I feel so indescribable…
