Is it possible? I am very depressed I am very bored and together I am bored of being depressed. My life is the same everyday, I accomplish nothing,I have no purpose.why be awake to only want to be asleep or sleeping trying to make life go by to be over sooner so what is the rationale behind that? I am bored of wasting time but too depressed to do anything about it.again I cannot sleep this foot ankle pain thing Damn broke foot.encourages me to do nothing more,pain keeps me in the bed cannot take any mess for pain, so I suffer in agony in silence no one wants to admit I can’t do anything, they deny the pain exists so I don’t affect their lives, just shut me in my room and I meditate on tv to try to alieve some pain.but not just the foot the heart and head it pains with worthlessness.
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Depression beyond death
I am so down that my amphetamines can’t even perk me up. I cannot function, I’m numb and everything just swirled past me I’m in and out of conciousness the Dr said I’d never get well I’m damaged goods.I get used up as a child against my will and I have to relive it everyday of my life. I have to suffer all my life…
Never going to get well
Went to Dr yesturday more depressed than ever. Lots of blackouts from dissasociating found out they are pretty much part of me forever. It’s not fair.I get damaged in my childhood and I’m paying the price for it now.I’m so unmitigated and depressed.
Wow am I living a dream….
All night u were my prince charming will it last? I want to spend forever with my prince.
My life revolves around you
As you lay here next to me, I cannot help but feel I am incomplete without you. My moods my motivation my reason for living is you.after 19 years together you have been my best friend and my worst enemy. We can do anything together.I love u
Like this:
Real confused
I am not sure of my life right now. Yesturday he said he loved me….does he mean it or is he just playing a game. I want him to straight tell me what he is doing.
Depressed beyond depressed
I can’t describe how much existance hurts, this awful numb pain I feel, it was only the begining of the month I was what seemed so happy. Why and when and how did that change? He can love me a month ago and hate me now? I can’t watch him everyday ignoring I’m around or sleeping in my bed but putting pillows down the middle. This world no longer holds a place for me. I don’t belong, I am feeling so much pain I cannot take it much longer….
He really hates to be with me…
Well its obvious now he wants out.no ring works late has somewhere to always go and can’t even speak to me…and intimate moments incomplete…I will survive my brain just works around it blocks it out…time to be moving along…..life sucks
after 19 years I find myself here again…..
He cannot say he loves me he cannot comfort me and hold me and tell me everything is going to be all right. I find myself in the lowest place ive been in 14+ years.we are dancing the dance again.it is my head again,I start to doubt the world around me,i lose me…I cannot survive [...]
Wow I am in awe
After being together almost 19 years since we were both 19 my hubby can still surprise me and be romantic and funny. For the moment, I am happy with my life, with my marriage. I feel so indescribable…
