I can’t describe how much existance hurts, this awful numb pain I feel, it was only the begining of the month I was what seemed so happy. Why and when and how did that change? He can love me a month ago and hate me now? I can’t watch him everyday ignoring I’m around or sleeping in my bed but putting pillows down the middle. This world no longer holds a place for me. I don’t belong, I am feeling so much pain I cannot take it much longer….
He really hates to be with me…
Well its obvious now he wants out.no ring works late has somewhere to always go and can’t even speak to me…and intimate moments incomplete…I will survive my brain just works around it blocks it out…time to be moving along…..life sucks
after 19 years I find myself here again…..
He cannot say he loves me he cannot comfort me and hold me and tell me everything is going to be all right. I find myself in the lowest place ive been in 14+ years.we are dancing the dance again.it is my head again,I start to doubt the world around me,i lose me…I cannot survive [...]
Wow I am in awe
After being together almost 19 years since we were both 19 my hubby can still surprise me and be romantic and funny. For the moment, I am happy with my life, with my marriage. I feel so indescribable…
My life
Everything is falling into place and im enjoying life.I will complete my book by 2013.i opened my website www.redsmoondesigns.com
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This is a whole NEW START for my blog
I am redoing my blog to try to be more focused on life and my wonderful tricks of frugal survival.I will be redoing the whole site and i will start to post topics from the book i am working on.I will try to keep my blogging negative personality under wraps and have them journal in a notebook.you can read all about them in the book i will be writing.In the ean time I am off to make homemade cranberry biscotti and if it tiurns out i ill post the recipe.
wanted: Friend For Hire
wanted friend for hire
need a craft mided
eager friend/companion/partner
to
share craft show space
&
Complete my projects.
pay will come in % of profits
from computer internet sales and craft shows.
Not always payed in cash
may be in exchange for supplies,
products, craft items, unpcycled collections…
basically all my junk!!!
Must be ambitious & Outgoing
be able to tolerate total chaos…
and survive my house, studio, and
interesting work enviroment.
Please no males reply!! My hubby is the jealous type…
Sorry,,,Looking for Potential Female Friend
hours-negotiable
pay- fluctuates
benefits- knowledge in new crafts, education and experience with the mentally ill….
and
POTENTIAL FRIENDSHIP!!!!
Bipolar 1 ugh my life
gone is the creativeness and energy till the mood swings the other way.its just a waiting game.bipolar is a waiting for the other shoe to drop illness.its going so good then too good then psychotic then crash the depression and then lower then you either die or swing back up to the high again.
My real mothers day
so should i tell you my creative way of explaining my mom day or the straight truth ill do both.The day before my hubby took me to fashion bug to pick out a dress that i wanted for mothers day then took me to sams club to buy my fav coffee for my kcups and creamer in the morning i was made homemade biscuits and chocolate gravy my favorite southern food served to me in bed with a cup of coffee.we watched tv and relaxed and at noon we went for a drive in the country me with my hat i decorated and new lipstick then we went to the art exhibit at the museum and to an artist book signing and refreshments then we drove along the beach shore to view lake michigan and see the fancy homes on the lakefront.we came home i went into my room to relax his family came over and hubby made homemade custom pizzas for everyone then they left we had some amazing alone time and then everyone settled down to bed.ok reality i had a $10 gift card and a $15 dollar coupon for fashion bug so i got a $35.00 dress for under $10 went to sams club to pick up cheaper food and shit we needed still forgot the toliet paper we need to get.came home and i made 3 batches of homemade biscuits and cooked them put them in the microwave to sit overnight for morning ease and i made several batches of pizza dough was exhausted went to bed got up in the morning before others made myself a cup of coffee watched some tv fell back asleep hubby had to run out to get milk for choc gravy i cleaned up the mess after eeryone ate and put leftovers in fridge.got dressed up thinking he may have something planned he took me for a drive to the gas station that was giving away the premium car wash for free for moms so used me for car wash.then took me to the free museauym to look at the art and there happened to be a book signing and reception that had free cookies and candy we drove through downtown toook the wrong road ended up on other side of railroad tracks so we had to drive the long way home which follows along lake michigan and then we went home i got out all the toppings and set them up buffet style for my hubby to make everyones pizzas and i spent part of the evening in my room with my nephew on the internet looking for a scary clown name for him and trying to convince him to go into buisness with me as a clown and face painting for kids parties even though we specialize in horror makeup and we sent my photos of him to the costume store we shop at cause they want them for their website so i asked them for a store discount if we buy our supplies from them for advertising for them.took my pills and went to bed.now which story sounds better?
